it's late. i'm tired. what else is new?

things were going quite well for awhile, but alas, it is my life, so it was bound to come crashing down. and crashing down it did, dear readers.

i'm not meant to be happy. i'm just meant to watch my life pass me by. i'm meant to wake in the morning wondering why i did at all. i'm bound to suffer for the rest of my days. i wish i could just accept this and move on. but sadly, i can't grasp this fact. i want more....i'm just not entitled to it. *trying to understand this*

i made a new friend at work. he is my long lost twin. this man is my soul mate. not in the sexual way, but in the 'our lives are completely the same' kind of way. he is brilliant. i am thankful for him every day.

i filed divorce papers. this is probably the best thing for me, but at the same time i keep thinking...what am i doing? i just couldn't do it anymore. it was too long without reciprocation. am i a bad person? i believe that i am.

alas, i am tired. thank you (stepfie) for your comments. i'm glad to know that i am 'important' (or at least interesting enough) to have people read my thoughts.

love to all. xo

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