another night. up later than i should be. work time comes around so early.

i'm supposed to see him on friday. am i ready for it? is he? will it be accusatory? will it be renewing? it's getting closer, ever closer.

i'm honestly ready to stay in my bed. under the covers. no sign of daylight. please, can't i just stay?

does anyone see who i am? do i want them to see me? do i know who i am anymore? i was unsure before, but now i'm totally unknown even to myself. am i pretending to be someone i'm not, or is this the real me?

was he right?

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