i am a creature of the night. this is when i dream, feel, think...

when i wake up in the morning, i am empty. i just go through the motions of the day.

even during sleep...i have vivid, unforgettable dreams. when i wake, everything just shuts off. the colors end when my eyes open. there is no more music. there are no more smiles.

this used to scare me. now, i just expect it... i keep going. i keep getting out of bed.

will it get easier? everyone says that it will. i'm waiting, waiting. when will it change? when will i want to get out of bed again?

the loneliness overwhelms me in the daylight. i long for the dark, when i dream, feel, think...

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