well...tonight is the same as every other night. pathetic. really.

the phone rang. i answered. my husband wanted me to take the sub job even though i didn't know what it was. he does not understand. fuck him. i'm in middle school tomorrow. i'm certified K-6. why doesn't he fucking understand that i don't want to take jobs in middle or high school? oh right....it's because he doesn't fucking care. it's not about me....it's about my contribution. the money that i "owe". well, guess what. that won't last forever. i'm fucking done. it's just a matter of me figuring out what the hell i'm doing. it will be soon. believe me. there is no reason for me to fucking stay here. is there, dear? do you even realize how i feel? i know that you don't. he is not a good husband. he does not realize that i actually need him more now than i've ever needed anyone. thank you, s, you've shown me what kind of husband you are. and guess what....i do not want any sort of husband after this fiasco. this has shown me enough. my first marriage....your second....it will be my only....it fucking sucks. thank you.

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