well....same old, same old. i'm so tired of it all. i'm really wondering tonight...what the hell am i doing here? why do i stay? things have not been good for awhile. i know...surprise, surprise.

irony - we just "celebrated" our seven year anniversary. aren't you supposed to celebrate love on an anniversary? we aren't in love anymore. seven years of what? honestly. he doesn't listen to me ever. he doesn't find me attractive. he spends time at work and bicycling and dealing with his daughter. that's it. there is NO time for me at all. and i'm really not sure if he would spend time with me anyway. everything else consumes him. i have no place in his life. so, here is my dilemma - i still love my husband. is that enough to save our marriage? i am really not sure. i want our marriage to last and be strengthened....but what is left of the marriage? love? not really. attraction? not really. friendship? sometimes. time? never for 'us'.

are the odds against me? am i silly to want to continue to try and save this marriage?

any feedback is appreciated.

xo

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