fuck it. fuck it. fuck it.

yes, i have gained weight. yes, it has been a nightmare to live in this fucking house. yes, you have made it easier for me to want to leave. yes, you are an ass for not finding me attractive anymore. yes, i do hate myself. yes, i do hope i fucking die in my sleep. yes, i love alcohol because it is all i have. yes, this marriage is a piece of shit. yes, i know i don't have anywhere to go. yes, i know that i haven't contributed to our finances. yes, i know that so often you say one thing and mean another. yes, you are selfish. yes, i'm done caring. yes, i will not eat or drink again. yes, i hope i die very soon. yes, it would be better than living in this fucking house. yes.....i will cry now.

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