well, i'm sitting here looking at the window at a perfect sunny day. i'm inside. yuck. we are all just lounging around today. i have gotten a lot of school reading done though. that's good. i'm actually being somewhat responsible. :)

i think of the state our country is in and i shudder. things are terrible right now. i'm not saying anything about the administration and i won't. things are worse than just the rulers of our country. i look around at the small things where i live and i can't believe how bad things are. and then i think about the big things and i cry. what is happening? there is anger, fear, doubt, disaster, depression, hatred all through the world. it's sometimes too much to deal with in a day.

we are getting rid of our sofa! this is such a great place! i'm so glad to know about it!

cleaned a large part of the house yesterday. did anyone help? of course not! but imagine my surprise when aa cleaned up the t.v. room this morning. thank you, thank you, thank you. but instead of just doing it she had to say, "YOUR t.v. room is clean". ggggrrrrrrr. i wanted to say, "since it's mine, please don't take any of your shit in there anymore." things are not the greatest at our house right now. her attitude is terrible every day. i think when i have my yearly appt., i will ask for some x@n@x. i actually think i really need it. i went upstairs yesterday to read and aa asked me to spend some time downstairs with them. she actually doesn't realize that her behavior makes me want to run away and never come back. she is convinced that she never does anything wrong. it's really exhausting to be here sometimes. school is my escape.

but really, when i think of the problems in the lives of others, the real problems, i have a wonderful life. i just need to focus on this fact more often.

xo

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