has it really been so long since i've had an entry? where do the days go? so much is going on here, and i hardly have time to think let alone put thoughts down in my diary.

i have been reading and keeping updated on your lives. take care of yourselves. xo

my stepdaughters are now living with us full time. that is such a blessing. i must say that it is a difficult adjustment. sometimes aa is very, very mean. it's very hard for me to have a 12-year-old yelling at me. for no reason. but there are times when she is the sweet girl that i know and love. this isn't just about her age, a lot of it has to do with the way she was treated by her mother. we are hoping that with love and patience and a house with no yelling that she will be nice and happy. this remains to be seen. ae is as sweet as always. she does have a bit of drama from time to time, but other than that she is wonderful. it seems as if s is working all the time. and then in the evening he'll fall asleep on the couch. most mornings he gets up to go for a bike ride. i feel like we don't see each other or talk or have much of a relationship right now. i'm sure this is all part of the adjustment, but i really don't like it. i feel very alone right now.

on the up side, it's back to school for me on monday. hooray! new classes. i love this feeling. i could probably be a student for the rest of my life if money permitted. i have 21 credit hours. yikes! i hope i can do it, and i will try my best.

strange dreams during the night. people from my past, other countries, beaches, whales, bookstores. but the morning is full of sun and beauty and i will go and enjoy it now.

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